PHOSPHORESCENCE | JULIA BAIRD | 2020 | NON-FICTION

I’m happy to admit that I bought this book for two reasons: first for the exquisite cover design; and second because I am in awe of the author. Julia Baird is an academic, journalist, author and the host of the ABC program The Drum. The cover called out to me; as a swimmer myself, its underwater luminescence pulled at my heart-strings. I cannot recall being so drawn to a book cover. When I read the blurb I immediately knew I would buy it. But then it sat on my bookshelf for a few months, face out so I could marvel at its beauty whenever I walked by. Early morning sunlight would catch on the iridescent flora and I would be happy.

There were so many other books I needed to read. When Phosphorescence called out early in the New Year I knew its time had come. I loved every word, every phrase and chapter: even those that seemed a little slow and heavily laden with quotes to support her theme. This book covers a range of topics from her grave illness, swimming in the ocean, her children and family, her friends and her work, and cuttlefish! Each topic is explored from a place of grace and a search for understanding. As she writes: One foot in front of the other. One arm circling after the other. One word tumbling out after the other. Whatever propels you forward.

Time and again she returns to the topic of phosphorescence and bio-luminescence. Travelling to Tasmania on a search for its beauty only to be overjoyed find it in her own seaside bay.

A number of chapters are devoted to Julia’s deep-seated love for her faith. As a Christian she both admires her religious roots and bemoans the church hierarchy’s lack of compassion and understanding for the very people Christ sought to heal and help. This book isn’t for everyone. Some reviewers have slammed it as being a self-indulgent memoir, coming from a place of privilege. But I found it inspirational and led me to seek out more awe in my life.

That this book was published amid a pandemic is pure coincidence and I’m sure many people would have been drawn to the subtitle: On awe, wonder & things that sustain you when the world goes dark.  Yes, our world did go dark and continues to flicker on and off as we learn to come to terms with a new normal. But I do believe this book has much to offer at any time, and does so, exquisitely.